The great unknown

In just a few weeks we're about to embark on a complete new chapter in our journey. Something that I'm both excited and nervous about. It's a time where I'm finding myself constantly stuck between feeling like I'm not doing enough and reminding myself that it's a season to slow down to focus solely on what matters most right now; making sure my whole family is ready physically and emotionally for this big step into the unknown.

I've been finding it hard to share anything online. When I started this website it was completely Spirit led; I knew what to do and how to do it. Everything just flowed easily and fell perfectly in its place. From work in the home to everything I did outside of the home. Everything was empowed by the Holy Spirit and I just had to be available and take the next step.

However, in this current season nothing has been flowing and the enemy has used that transitional space that seems empty to bombard me day and night with the feeling that I have failed. That feeling made me want to stay offline. Untill I realized that it's okay to not always know what the next thing is going to be and how it's going to look like. In the end it's all about one thing: Being molded, sanctified, pruned and washed clean to be more like Jesus. That's what it's all about. And as long as I can keep my eyes on Him, everything else doesn't really matter. It will fall into place when we learn to wait on the Lord.

Our God is a good and faithful Father and has given us promises to stand on. This season is simply the season where that's all we have to cling on to. His promise. Questions like how, what, where and when arn't for us to know. All we know is part of the game plan and the promise, knowing the Father; that is enough.

It's a life build on faith. Something our flesh and the world struggles with.

But God.

God has a much more beautiful plan in mind and whatever it is, I want to be part of it. That sometimes looks like running with a burning fire within you knowing exactly where you're heading and other times it will look like carefully taking a step on a dim lit path. You'll only see the next step after you've taken the one in front of you.

It makes me wonder how David felt in the Wilderness. Never knowing when Saul would show up again or if he'd make it out of the season with any friends left to go to. Only knowing that God had made him a promise and His promises are "yes and amen".

"Love the Lord, all you his saints!

The Lord preserves the faithful

but abundantly repays the one who acts in pride

Be strong, and let your heart take courage,

all you who wait for the Lord!"

Psalm 31